Glorious - Macklemore ft. Skylar Grey

“i was born for this, born for this, it’s who I am, how could i forget?”

When I was 10 I stood up on a stage with my best friend and sang to an audience

Now at 25 I’m not sure if I’m capable of presenting to an audience let alone performing live

But something within me has always craved acceptance, approval, applause

I’m a singer/songwriter, it makes sense, is only the natural next step, to perform live

I imagine if i did, and it was successful, I would feel like this song

I imagine if i did, and it was unsuccessful, I would feel like a disaster

But if i managed it at ten why not at twenty five ?

The answer - I was fearless as a child. I would try anything, befriend anyone

I learn fear at twelve and the unlearning is taking so long

Fear comes in many different forms, with many different names, to varying degrees

there are phobias, and mental illnesses such as anxiety and ocd that revolve around fear, fear of the world at large, and people, social anxiety

My fear started small and spiralled out of control over the years

After my most recent breakdown I decided I had no room left for fear

Recently i’ve been challenging my fears and winning

I don’t know what my limit is anymore, who knows if I’ll be performing on stage soon, I know that I was born to. I don’t know if i’ll ever regain what I lost at twelve. I hope so

Whatever your particular fear is, i hope you beat it too

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