Dear old Nicki - Nicki Minaj

I listened to this when I was younger. Before I realised that there was something weird about what I was doing, I had dissociated from my body and face and the whole performance

I thought I was Baby, and Baby was me

But I remember listening to this song and something really resonating

I buried myself deep down inside, and became Baby at a young age

“At every intersection we just missed each other”, gets me every time

I blamed the younger me for everything, when she was so strong she hung in there for a decade

Whenever things got rough for me, I needed some inner strength, something real, not fake, to help me dig deep and get out of a dark place

I think listening to this song will help a lot of people understand

I love that some people want to, I used to think no one would get it, could understand

I felt so strange

But identity disorders are real, they do happen, and I’m certainly not the only person to have potentially had one

"I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do." — Frida Kahlo